On Goodbye

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

We've been saying goodbye so many times, but I know that this very moment, it was the last. And suddenly all the ideas who seemed clear yesterday became blurry. I wasn't ready for goodbye. The zero possibility of ever holding your hand again made me devastated. I felt so hollow. Like, James Blunt kind of hollow.

And you touched my hands, maybe for the last time. I will never forget you, you said, you know I won't.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.

I'm glad we met, I said. Too sad we're not meant to be.

But seriously, what is meant to be really means? Will there be a sign if someone was really meant for us? God? Maybe then I could stop wasting my time with a bunch of someone(s).

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I knew that someday, someday I'll be just another ex girlfriend on your list. And maybe someday I'll be able to remember you just like that, too. I hope we remember all the good parts. I hope.

You didn't know how much it hurt at that very moment. I was bleeding inside. But I knew I had to do it because we were going nowhere. Maybe I could see the end even before we begun but I just couldn't resist you. 

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you. 

While some parts of me wanted to scream don't ever leave me, I knew it had to be done. Thank you, for everything we shared. I love you. I'll be fine. We'll be fine. Just not together. 

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.